quiet..?

I’m a quiet person… am I? If there is a group discussion or meeting or even friend gathering and gossiping… I don’t talk much I think. I only talk when I really have a good idea or story to be shared… other than that, I rather keep quiet and listen and laugh to their jokes. Am I a good listener? Sometime yeah...sometime not really…hehe. I remember back in primary school, I’m not even close to be call a normal girl… because I was running here and there, climbing tree, playing ‘war’ in the jungle with my brother and his friend… but i m quiet n shy. My life back then was not full of confident and eventhough i 'sgt lasak' but i m a quiet n shy girl… I talk whenever i feel necessary… I am shy to show my ability and talent to the public…I do join the school play… I said honestly what I like and don’t to people who are close to me…but x the teacher/lecturer..But as time fly away… as I go to a boarding school, then blaja kat IIUM (eventhough half way i quit) meeting with so many people all over the world… I realize that not everybody like to make frens with sum1 who r quiet n shy like me.nobody knws me.staying far away from my family, bond with the rules n bla bla bla...I was trap with myself…y?because i was desperately wnt to make frens with others but i was too shy to open my mouth n start the conversation.i was very worried because i have to do assignments n homeworks but no frens to discuss with.then i learn to change myself..from a passive girl, i become so..erm..not really active but i do have frens,join the society,join the programs,hang out with frens…I start to talk n talk n talk..but sumhow,i still x boley buang rase malu..that’s how I start becoming like i m now...talk a lot but sumtimes so afraid to express myself..hehehe...n i try to build my own comfort zone n feel safe staying there... i dono wut im talking..do u understand wut im trying to say..?

im oredi 25 years old..(penat la ckp omputih..rojak bleh?) still mencari makna hidup,mengutip pengalaman2 manis n pahit untuk d jadikan kenangan n pedoman esok hari..for myself,my family,n my nation..masih bersusah payah bekerja untuk mengumpul harta,membuat amal kebajikan, n etc..praying dat ade 'anak2' jagaan aku di seri puteri,yg berubah berkat didikan baik yang kami berikan...aku harap,'berkat berjasa' kepada mereka,idup aku jugak akn diberkati Allah..


n still aku x tau la ape yg aku bebel kan nih..huhu!!!